A new update.

oh ho ho ho, life is beginning to get hard.

problems are flowing in.

hard ones.

and its not easy to solve.

not everything we could say it out as it brings harm and sharp pointers to people.

just be quiet and accept whats going on.

SERIOUSLY?

I have NO idea how the term lala started on me but i'm absolutely fine with insults and teases. That's not a really big problem for me. But i realised this thing has been going on for some time and it irritates me ALOT. I've already forgot about the past sadness and why are they keep bringing it up?! I have seriously NO damn idea. And they claimed themselves as friends?

I feel. WEIRD.

I have seriously no idea why i'm feeling weird. I JUST DON'T KNOW.

How to describe the weird feeling i'm feeling it now? Hmmm...

I feel like everyone dislikes me. seriously. Don't ask me why. I have no idea at all why i'm feeling this way at this moment. Sometimes i wonder whether is this feeling true or not. Does everyone dislikes me?

Its time.

Its time.

Its time to do what is necessary.

Those who always listen to my sorrows will understand what i mean.

There will be no more sadness in me that always come from the same source.

THAT source will be no more. vanished. disappear as i prepare myself to face it, once and for all.

...

I'm wasting my time thinking too much again. AARRGGHHH....Who am i to call? I'll do what is necessary.

Hey hey hey...

:) I was planning to blog at 5.30 after tuition but i just wanted to blurt some things out so badly right now. I know its been a while since i update this blog...especially when its FULL of words...i promise i'll add some pics in after this post. :)

Where to start? Hmmm....ok got it!

Exams are on the go and i've learnt ALOT for the past two weeks. Its not that i study and i learn from textbook. NO! Its stuffs that i learn throughout the exams period. There are wolves in the world. Sounds familiar huh? ;) And i always feel the world is unfair. Seriously, the world is NOT fair and i know that's a fact we've got to digest. After i've done every paper, i'll just stare out of the window and think Not only that, i'll also continue to think while walking home. Sometimes i think too much and for some reasons, it's good that i do. Don't ask me why. Things are turning out better for me and i am damn sure that it'll get better after the holidays. :)

I have definitely learned ALOT of lessons during the exams period which i can't tell, afraid that people will misunderstand it. I think it's about time i follow these lessons sent by God himself. I always wonder, '' Is HE trying to prove something to me?'' Maybe it is and i don't know when and how to see things right. I'm having a lot of fun with my friends recently but somehow...there is this string in me that is three-quarter pulled out. I just need about one more week and total support from my friends to pull that pathetic little string out.And i know i can do it :)

Oh well...

Where should i start? I'm a bit organised now. A BIT. But still the same old weakling. Can't be man enough to solve my very own problems. Sometimes i just dun understand what am i doing. SERIOUSLY. I JUST don't know. Haih...i always regret in the end...keep repeating it to myself over and over again, but still the dumb-ass me. Maybe i'll do it. One day. Not too long. I know u support me :)

I'M A MESS.

I am not organised anymore. Everything's a mess just because i'm having a war inside. I have the confidence i'll win this battle. I WILL WIN THIS. No point telling others. Dun wanna disturb their precious time.

Goodness.

I've no time to go online anymore. Everyday is like a busy day for me. Super busy. Homework will be pilling up like shit if i dun do it for one day. Just ONE DAY. == Not to mention i'll be away from school from next monday till thursday. YE stock challenge. Then volleyball MSSD. For the past 16 years of my life i didn't face the problem of rushing my homework but why when i entered the 17th year of my life i am facing it? LOL...its not that i cant finish..i just procrastinate too much...way too much.... :)

:)

Exams are over. Holidays are over. Results are out. And it wasn't a good start when school reopens. First day of school got terrible high fever, then result came out, i got dengue :( Blood count keep dropping but i still did not get admitted since my blood count is still not THAT low. Homework pilled up higher than mountain but i still ain't touching it. hehe ;)

Anyway, i really wanna go for mssd volleyball training but my dad said i just recovered so i can't go :( However, i'll ask him again 2mr and see whats the outcome of it. Hopefully can go. I wanna play volleyball. I LOVE to play volleyball :) and i CAN play alright? I am not rookie sort of player and also not that pro also la duh. average u call it :)

Exam results are out and i did not do so well of course. Was not feeling that well during the exams period but who cares? its only the first term. Not the trials. Besides, its not the full format sort of paper. Its just a warm up paper only. It cant prove much.

Ready for exams?

NOT!!!!!

stressed up...feeling whole body hot every morning....reason is : belum study untuk exam -.-

Who cares la...screw this term...screw it screw it!

VALENTINE'S DAY :)

I went to watch Valentine's Day alone and the show is hilarious yet awesome! I was laughing most of the time....haha...seriously...super funny....and there were love of all ages. Old, adult, teenage, even kids! LOL...Its a nice movie.

I just hate it.

Thanks to all my frens who are there when i need them.

I just feel like slapping someone on the face right now. Sometimes, i feel symphatise but whenever i think back and thought of two points, just two little points, it throws my sympathy away and brings rage in me. It burns. it kills. it hurts definitely. The pain i will endure as long as i can because of my mistake which lead me to this stage of point in life. I will still move on and one thing i regret is i should listen to friend's advice from the beggining. My wrong move, took me into hell. way deep into hell and its hard to come out. I am halfway out, i just need somemore time. maybe two weeks? longest by 1 month. That two point fires me up and whenever i feel like giving up while i just follow whatever is instructed...i willt think of that two points, yet again. It will definitely fire me up and boost my anger in me.

For now, i will leave in control emotions.

U R pathetic.

I am fed up of listening to ur tease and laugh everytime i see you. Its not that i can't take it. I am just getting fed up with it. I know now you are at the peak of ur life. But don't forget your origin. Go ahead and enjoy. Never will i speak a word to you as for i am fed up with you creating a tease and the whole gang will laugh along. As i said, i can take it...but i had enough. You know who you are.

I realised something.

Girls who can play volleyball are HOT!!!